Yes, I know. Over-exaggerate much, Kim? But really, when you've looked out at the world through one particular lens for so very long, the prospect of a new perspective is unsettling. When I look at the world, I see the reflections in it more clearly than I ever did before. Ripples on water, light catching a window in just the right way, the way you can see different things in someone's eye depending on what they're looking at. My world view is shaped by the story I'm writing, and I'll miss this one. There's been beauty and sweetness, heartache and grief. And even though it's a story, there's been truth.
My new story is a harder, darker thing. But it needs to be written and despite all the above, I'm eager to begin. I know I'll find new beauties and new heartaches through its lens, but until I'm there in the thick of it, I can only speculate about what the experience will be. I can only guess what I'll see, and how I'll live.
So I lay THROUGH A GLASS DARKLY down to sleep, and wake up my new story with a whispered, "It's your turn now." And my heart wars with itself, weeping for the one, exulting over the other. Transitions are hard, no matter how wondrous the destination of them.
VanderVision Tip of the Day: Being a writer is the best kind of awesome. It's like playing a favorite video game and having unlimited lives.